Did all of this by myself with one final once-over tape job from my CNA. I used tape, fabric glue, scissors, and even rolled up a piece of my Dycem mat to hold the shoe in place while I sized it. I think my history of rolling joints and burritos is finally paying off! And I forgot to mention the other day when I did all of the crazy stuff. One of my aids is always complaining that the other CNAs don't rinse out my pee bags with water. Well, I did it! I put it in the toilet put the other end in the sink and ran the water.
Super glue is fun! Bag holder on my chair will no longer drop any bags!
The one-hander
You can mount it either above or below your toilet paper holder. It would be made from a Dycem-like material.
You can mount it either above or below your toilet paper holder. It would be made from a Dycem-like material.
4/18/24
I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide for me?
4/18
And sometimes you run into the “not so great” CNAs. When you ask them, but to yourself obviously, “Are you sure you want to be in this field of work?” Remember the “You might be a redneck.”? Think that but, “You might need a new field of work.”
If you do such a weak job wiping that your resident needs assistance staying on their side so that they can wipe themselves, You might need a new field of work.
If multiple times your client needs to wipe himself for you missed A LOT, You might need a new field of work.
4/18
First things first. The spasms were ridiculous over the weekend without the Neupro Patches. Still typing this minus the patch is very difficult. Please let me know how many come in a box so I can set reminders to remind you when to order more.
Now that that's said, I really don't mind if your employees are sleeping. But I overheard today's CNA and witnessed her working from 7 am to 7 pm. How can you schedule it so that they physically have to sleep? Tonight’s CNA however was a pleasure to work with, when she was awake. But I'm disabled and there are things I'm sometimes going to wake up and need in the middle of the night without having to catch hell for waking them up.
4/18
I should have never let Tricia take the picture of the schedule. I instantly regretted it as soon as right after she mentioned Nancy. Yes, they work long hours where they need to sleep. Some go from one job to the next so they have to sleep. But they are all good Christian Americans. The financial and insurance struggles for immigrants must be a nightmare. Seriously though, I don't want to lose Blossom Services. I DO NOT WANT TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE. She was too quick with the picture and I'm too much of a blabbering idiot. I've been in prison, I've been called "snitch bitch" and "narc." I've ruined other people's lives by sending them to prison because of my big stupid mouth. Nancy, please strike everything from the record. I don't want ANYTHING to change. I'm a bad person. A very bad person. These people are not. They are hard-working people trying to make a living, feed their families, and make their own American dream. said this to my doctors
I’m broke and in need of wipes for both my ostomy care and I’m constantly getting wet due to catheter malfunction for whatever reason. I would appreciate a prescription so that insurance can help me acquire some. Also Sanford equip is still sending me the wrong ostomy pouch deodorant’s. I can’t open the liquid myself. Thank you so much
4/18
Yes, it sucks that my face has a wrinkle by the chin because I was constantly making a weird smile. And it was ginormously scary to have my left arm (reluctantly re-born now dominant hand) go into a lock-up mode where I couldn't even move it to press a button. It was all the UTI. But I have a few pieces of really good news. First, the MRI showed no signs of a stroke. I asked about last February also. I'm switching to oral antibiotics and looking at discharging tomorrow after 3. My speech practice is paying off because I am ordering my food via telephone. And now the MOST exciting part. The PT tried it and gave it the green light and now all transfers are being done using just a gate belt. I got wet while in my chair and two ladies came probably not weighing more than 210 pounds and combined changed me! One person said in and out of bed is a breeze! Goodbye, Sarah Study Best-Move!
4/18
My apologies boss. I wish I could turn back time. I instantly think of the stupid Cher song. Anyway, I just want everyone to be cool and comfortable around me. I want to get back to fist bumps. I was so aggravated when you said that it wasn't on my calendar after you responded that Tuesday beforehand and said, quote, "Yes, we will get you there on Friday!" End quote. Well, I'm politely asking if someone could please take me to the same clinic as my last appointment either Tuesday or Thursday morning BEFORE 9:30 AM. Actually, it's before ten but I'm playing it safe. We DON'T need an appointment. Sam, I'm also politely asking you to please put it on my calendar for either Tuesday or Thursday morning to please get me to the same clinic. Yeah, Sam, I'll CC you in any and every clinic or appointment-related email from now on. Just please confirm with me that it's on my calendar.
But now back to being cool again. Yes, we; Brian, his wife, and I, think it was pretty heinous to have all our hopes of a peaceful get-together meal followed up by prayers in our church shot down. But I forgive you. At times like this, I have to ask myself, what would Jesus do? He certainly wouldn't have cursed out the leader of his caretakers AKA you. In fact, I think as he was on the Cross he said something like, "Forgive them, Father, they know not what they do."
My negative reactions have got to stop. I shouldn't have acted the way I did but at the same time don't get the hopes of a flat-broke, struggling, TBI-recovering person who spends his days looking at blank walls, (I'm broke) and listening to CNAs talking on their phones while I draw or game, get crushed. I'm so broke and bored! Is it summer yet? I want fresh air. I'll quit boring you now. I'm starting to bore myself! Go far with Sahr, just make sure you CC Sam or you might not get anywhere!
4/18
ask me before and after reading this section
I'm sorry Nancy. Truly I am a very bad person. I wasn't 100 % happy with Blossom services so I lied and exaggerated the truth. I never have physically seen anyone sleeping on the job. It just was always my assumption when they came into my room sleepy-eyed. I talked with Moe, the one who changed me without wiping while he had those sleepy eyes and he said that he would never do it again. The bottom line is that all of my cares are being met. And surprisingly well done at that. My ostomy cares are met. Showers are done and since Sahr talked about it with her, Emma kept her cackling to a minimum. I'm terribly sorry to reprimand me or whatever is understandable. I was just looking for more companionship with my caretakers so I took the feeble way out. I'm a big pussy in a grown man's body. Sorry for wasting your time. Blossom, though we've had our differences, are my family now. University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102 is where I want to stay. Just look at the sweet haircut I got. I expected to pay $25-30 but Sam and Ballah took me to Skillz barber. Their prices were $12 haircuts and $7 beard cuts. I got both for $8. I had to apologize to my barber for the only tip I could afford was not to eat a Yellosnocone. Which is my Gamertag if any of your friends or family members want to play Hearthstone. Yellosnocone #1705 have them add me.
4/18
Yes we’re still on for the 15th. And please don’t forward this email on to Blossom like you’ve done with almost every other email I’ve ever sent you! Sahr was mentioning if I wanted to go to another agency. If that involves me relocating then I definitely DON’T want to do it. And I’m not the slightest bit racist. I’ve dated black women. But they were born in America. When someone says they want to watch a movie with me but then they are in a phone call on their Bluetooth device the whole time then where is the working relationship? And I swear to the Holy Ghost if either of you forward this message on to Sahr then sorry Nancy you will be fired. I kind of have to keep Tricia. But seriously though the language barrier is difficult enough with my speech the way it is. Is there any agencies out there that have workers that were born in America? I would like to be the one who is in the conversation with my caretakers AKA company in MY HOUSE. Not their families back home on their Bluetooth. Remember FORWARD THIS AND NANCY IS FIRED! Sorry I forgot to say can I please get some information on American born potential agencies that don’t involve a relocation? Please and thank you!
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On Apr 4, 2024, at 3:29 PM, Germain, Nancy J. wrote:
I will talk to Sahr about it so he can address this with staff.
Are we still good with meeting on the 15th for your review? Did any of your family members say that they would want to join the meeting?
Nancy
-----Original Message-----
From: Mathew Kerzman
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 3:13 PM
To: Germain, Nancy J.
Cc: Tricia McNamee
Subject: Re: I don’t feel safe
***** CAUTION: This email originated from an outside source. Do not click links or open attachments unless you know they are safe. *****
It’s just that every single aid is either sleeping or on the phone. Phone calls straight up annoy the crap out of me. Especially if it’s during my cares.
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On Apr 4, 2024, at 9:53 AM, Germain, Nancy J. wrote:
Hi,
I just saw the email now... it did not go to my inbox.
Mat, are you okay?
Nancy
-----Original Message-----
From: Tricia McNamee
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 9:45 AM
To: Mathew Kerzman ; Germain, Nancy J.
Subject: RE: I don’t feel safe
***** CAUTION: This email originated from an outside source. Do not click links or open attachments unless you know they are safe. *****
Hello Mat,
Can you explain the situation for us? I am not sure I understand what you are referring to.
Tricia McNamee
Independent Living Advocate
Transition Coordinator
Freedom Resource Center for Independent Living, Inc.
2701 9th Ave S. Ste. H
Fargo, ND 58103
Phone: 701-478-0459 or 800-450-0459
Fax: 701-478-0510
Email: [email protected]
Website: http://www.freedomrc.org/
Our Vision: People with disabilities are equal and valued participants of society.
Our Mission: Provide services that increase independence for people with disabilities.
-----Original Message-----
From: Mathew Kerzman
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 4:49 AM
To: Nancy Germain ; Tricia McNamee
Subject: I don’t feel safe
CAUTION: This email originated from outside of the organization. Do not click links or open attachments unless you recognize the sender and know the content is safe.
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4/18 ask again please
This started as a text to a friend, but I am going to add to it. Start of text: So things are up and down. Like I am broke as heck. I mean I made my milk from a powder base the other day. But I am doing so many things independently. Like today I put my own freaking glove on and used my weaker hand to help. I honestly only used my teeth to get it over my knuckles. All so I could dump my colostomy bag by myself. Sorry tmi but I speak the truth.
End of text.
And as I am speaking of being broke. I am typing this out with my finger because I can't afford the $15 on Amazon for Apple Pencil tips! But it's really all about freedom and independence. If I were to get married to a woman who has basic CNA knowledge and can help me transfer in and out of bed I could do this rest. Pills could be set up by nurses who would come in once a week and arrange them in planners and do a catheter flush. I could hire someone to come in every few days and give me showers. I wouldn't even need Blossom Service Group LLC. I would still continue to go to PAM rehab for therapy riding transit by myself. Making sure that my ostomy bag is emptied before I go out and stop at the bathrooms as needed to dump my leg bag when needed. Starting today I'm always going to wear a leg bag when I'm in my chair. No one wants to see that pee bag. Even if it has a blue cover.
Sure, being broke as heck really sucks but the freedom I'm experiencing is remarkable. The Art Gala with Mary was simply amazing. It made me feel, I don't know kind of justified. Like I don't mean to come off as conceded but when I won the award I kind of knew that it was well deserved with the years of art I've pumped out at Dakota Alpha. Speaking of which, I still love and enjoy the art plaque of all of my favorite bands on my wall. In fact, I'm so broke that it's the ONLY thing on my wall! I'm honestly thinking about starting day trading or some sort of graphic design job. I don't know. Any and all ideas or recommendations would be greatly appreciated. Tell Karl that I'm still the boss at Rummy when I get the opportunity to play with Dorbor my CNA. The last game was 590-325. And if he plays his tricks on any of your residents tell them to ALWAYS call heads. Seriously though. The one time they call tails it will be heads. Pick one or the other and NEVER sway! Sorry, it took so long to get back to you, Miss Ma'am! I still tell people that story.
4/18
Everything is starting to look really bad. #1 is the money issue. Buying wipes, briefs, and food can NOT be done with $100 a month! $178 if you include SNAP benefits. I guess I could start working from home. But first some more of the bad things. I scared another CNA away. Well, it's not scaring when you flat-out fire them! He was constantly sleeping. And you could say that he was green to American culture and he refused to even listen to a joke. My chair is falling apart
4/18
I'm Sorry boss that you had to see me at my worst. On my Sanford chart app the dr said I was responsible for getting it from Sanford equip so I honestly thought we would get there and get turned away. Another thing was that I had to be there before 10 to get my testosterone test. Which by the way doesn't need to be scheduled. I told them I would be there Tuesday morning if that's cool with you.
4/18
But seriously don’t make me forward this on to Nancy. Musa may claim to be med smart and he thinks he’s better than me. I tried telling him how to dump my pee bag and he’s all, “Sahr will show me, not you.” Second time last night putting me to bed with a leg bag. I even reminded him but then forgot. Always leaves my socks on my chair. Every day I say please put them in the hamper. I have really tried with him. I know that they are just my workers and not my friends. But I can’t even have a conversation with him. I spent 4 hours in the hospital twiddling my thumbs and talking to myself.
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4/18
Sahr, I'm not going to cc anyone else in this email and not even forward it to my counselor or family. And I don't mean any offense to black folks. I've dated them. I know that my unit is nowhere near your people but I kind of have a thing for dark meat. I almost married one! Well not really I asked after a few months and she said, quote; "Oh Hell no. Too soon my man." Or something like that for she was American born. And I don't know much about the average CNA wage for home health care but I'm guessing that it's more than $18 an hour. I remember hearing Decontee on the phone before she left. But working with me is going to have to pay way WAY way more than that! For you KNOW first hand how MUCH work I am. When I was a line cook at Paradiso I made $18 and that was in 2012. Think about inflation for a second. And the Lord, whom I firmly believe in and love. Knows that I could sue you, put you out of business, and win in court again. You, with all your expertise in health care, had the great idea of tying my hand to the bed. You let people sleep on the job. Emma finally started snoring after I had put my headphones in because of her voice on the phone. Good talk with her today huh? But I don't want to. Even if I do move I wouldn't. I want to continue to go far with Sahr. Please pay the CNAs who are working in my house a heck of a lot more. At least #20 and black, white, I really don't give a freak! See, I'm working on not swearing. Dorbor is awesome, Melvina is awesome, and Emmanuel is definitely awesome! Just please, American-born from now on. No offense but Africans love their phones too Just please, And oh yeah, your aids, they have to play with feces. Speaking of which I have to get into bed later today because it's already falling off. You both forgot the back strap. It's on now but I don't want feces on fresh bedding. Go far with Sahr. And I can't afford to buy wipes with a hundred bucks a month. Now that my briefs are getting paid for. That's it! And I have more alcohol wipes. I'll tweak the one-handed wiper. It'll sell for $20 at Walmart but if you and a beneficiary of my choosing (SSDI I can't make money) invest the $500 patent fee then you guys would make bank! I'll work on an itinerary. I'm excited about Transit Solo Sunday!
The lowest paid home health RN, yes technically my aids are RN’s for they change my colostomy bag and administer my medication, make $23.6 dollars an hour the middle range is $37.50. I’m sorry about the Africans love their phones comment. I sincerely respect their loyalty and admire their dedication to family. I just think aids would be more willing to work with me and all of my MANY MANY needs and cares. Once again I really want to stay on with you. You’re making bank off of me and I know it. I have $14.57 in my account and yes I have Xl gloves coming in today so my aid’s whom I sincerely appreciate can help me get them on easily. I’m never trying to be pushy I just get excited when trying to help. You’re the man and I want to continue to go far with Sahr. You guys really are amazing and like family to me. Pay them better and I’ll gladly stay. I feel weird about saying this but I love you all. One more thing I’ll gladly stay conditionally #2. Emma follows the no phone rule. But everyone else can use them! I gotta get to bingo. Sorry Emma I need to wake you up for a glove!
https://www.ziprecruiter.com/Salaries/Home-Health-Rn-Salary-in-Fargo,ND
4/18
I just don't want you to hate me Emmanuel. I know that you've seen me at my worst. I think I've yelled around one too many times. But I respect you. You're a pastor for Pete's sake! Well, I am also a man of God. Being tied up like Him on the cross is not a good way for anyone to sleep. It broke that day because on the night before I altered my elbow brace. It ended up being painful so I was trying to adjust it. I had to repeatedly hold it above my head. I know that the fact that it kept dropping on it is what broke it. I just don't want you to hate me. You're one of my coolest aids at Blossom. No one else has brought me food. The pressure of my arm resting on the bag would never break these bags they are built strong.
4/18
A few different people at PAM have asked me about the care I'm receiving from Blossom. Mostly after hearing about the hand-tying business, and not to mention the ostomy care. But I am hopeful that this phone call will resolve half of the issues. I'm content with Blossom so far. They are doing the best they can, especially when ostomy care is added to the regiment. I'm MORE than a handful and to this day I secretly believe that Dakota Alpha was trying to push me out! Even though Aly swears up and down that she would have loved to have more residents as driven as me.
4/18
you might have already read this section I’m just sorry I took up all your time reading. I’ll try to play chess with Dorbor!
March 11, 2024
I understand that Blossom Services staff are scheduled to be with me 24/7, but I would like to spend some time without staff twice per week for a two-hour duration each time. During that time, Blossom staff will go out of the apartment and will check-in with me at the one-hour mark. They will also respond to any message that you need them back due to emergency. I agree to notify (message) staff if I need them for any urgent needs during the two hours.
I am my own decision maker and have the right to make this choice. I acknowledge and agree that I am responsible for anything that happens during the time that I am out of staff’s line of sight. Blossom Services will not be liable for anything that happens during that time.
I agree that I will not engage in behavior that may jeopardize my apartment or housing and will not engage in unlawful behavior. This includes smoking or vaping, which are both, per posted signs in the apartment building, not allowed in the building or apartment. Eviction due to these behaviors will occur if caught. Unlawful behavior, including smoking marijuana or other illegal drug use, is also punishable by law and would result in losing the apartment and housing assistance.
I agree to let Blossom Services know ahead of time what days each week that I would like to spend a couple of hours alone.
I agree to communicate with Blossom Services any medical appointments that I wish to change ahead of that appointment day. I want to go in to see the doctor for exams without staff in the room, but I will supply staff with the after-visit summary after each appointment so that care coordination can continue.
I would like to empty my ostomy bag myself and agree to let Blossom Services nurse teach me regarding how I can do this myself. I agree that my staff can be present when I empty the bag as a second set of hands, if needed. Staff will continue to help me to put on a glove before I empty the ostomy bag each time and will continue to do all bag changes.
I like to cook and would like to be able to do some cooking sometimes. I agree to work with staff’s assistance around the stove due to safety measures that need to be followed concerning some cooking procedures, for example… boiling water, hot oil, etc.
Blossom Services will be supplying a whiteboard calendar where activities can be planned ahead of time, my time without staff can be planned twice per week, my appointments can be posted, and any other events can be shared that I would like to participate in.
The key is communication between me and the agency as we move forward.
with my edits
March 11, 2024
I understand that Blossom Services staff are scheduled to be with me 24/7, but I would like to spend some time without staff twice per week for a two-hour duration each time. During that time, Blossom staff will go out of the apartment and will check in with me at the one-hour mark.
I am my own decision-maker and have the right to make this choice. I acknowledge and agree that I am responsible for anything that happens during the time that I am out of the staff's line of sight. Blossom Services will not be liable for anything that happens during that time. I agree that I will not engage in behavior that may jeopardize my apartment or housing and will not engage in unlawful behavior. This includes smoking or vaping, which are both, per posted signs in the apartment building, not allowed in the building or apartment. Eviction due to these behaviors will occur if caught. Unlawful behavior, including smoking marijuana or other illegal drug use, is also punishable by law and would result in losing the apartment and housing assistance. When I get my medical marijuana card I will gladly step outside.
If I wanted to get somewhere within my apartment building I would give my staff a thirty-minute heads-up. I agree to communicate with Blossom Services any medical appointments that I wish to change ahead of that appointment day. I want to go in to see the doctor for exams without staff in the room, but I will supply staff with the after-visit summary after each appointment so that care coordination can continue.
I have been emptying my ostomy bag myself and showed Louise the nurse how I do it. She gave me an emphatic thumbs-up! I agree that my staff would stay within earshot and not be on their computers. I will continue to put on a glove before I empty the ostomy bag. I know that my CNAs will do all bag changes.
I like and am able to do some cooking sometimes. I agree to work with staff's assistance around the stove due to safety measures that need to be followed concerning some cooking procedures, for example… boiling water, hot oil, etc.
Blossom Services will be supplying a whiteboard calendar where my appointments can be posted, and any other events can be shared that I would like to participate in.
The key is communication between me and the agency as we move forward.
_________________________ ______________________ Mathew Kerzman Sahr Thomas, Blossom Services
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Nancy J. Germain, LBSW, HCBS CM
I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide care for me? If not, do you know any that could?I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide care for me? If not, do you know any that could?
I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide for me?
4/18
And sometimes you run into the “not so great” CNAs. When you ask them, but to yourself obviously, “Are you sure you want to be in this field of work?” Remember the “You might be a redneck.”? Think that but, “You might need a new field of work.”
If you do such a weak job wiping that your resident needs assistance staying on their side so that they can wipe themselves, You might need a new field of work.
If multiple times your client needs to wipe himself for you missed A LOT, You might need a new field of work.
4/18
First things first. The spasms were ridiculous over the weekend without the Neupro Patches. Still typing this minus the patch is very difficult. Please let me know how many come in a box so I can set reminders to remind you when to order more.
Now that that's said, I really don't mind if your employees are sleeping. But I overheard today's CNA and witnessed her working from 7 am to 7 pm. How can you schedule it so that they physically have to sleep? Tonight’s CNA however was a pleasure to work with, when she was awake. But I'm disabled and there are things I'm sometimes going to wake up and need in the middle of the night without having to catch hell for waking them up.
4/18
I should have never let Tricia take the picture of the schedule. I instantly regretted it as soon as right after she mentioned Nancy. Yes, they work long hours where they need to sleep. Some go from one job to the next so they have to sleep. But they are all good Christian Americans. The financial and insurance struggles for immigrants must be a nightmare. Seriously though, I don't want to lose Blossom Services. I DO NOT WANT TO BE ANYWHERE ELSE. She was too quick with the picture and I'm too much of a blabbering idiot. I've been in prison, I've been called "snitch bitch" and "narc." I've ruined other people's lives by sending them to prison because of my big stupid mouth. Nancy, please strike everything from the record. I don't want ANYTHING to change. I'm a bad person. A very bad person. These people are not. They are hard-working people trying to make a living, feed their families, and make their own American dream. said this to my doctors
I’m broke and in need of wipes for both my ostomy care and I’m constantly getting wet due to catheter malfunction for whatever reason. I would appreciate a prescription so that insurance can help me acquire some. Also Sanford equip is still sending me the wrong ostomy pouch deodorant’s. I can’t open the liquid myself. Thank you so much
4/18
Yes, it sucks that my face has a wrinkle by the chin because I was constantly making a weird smile. And it was ginormously scary to have my left arm (reluctantly re-born now dominant hand) go into a lock-up mode where I couldn't even move it to press a button. It was all the UTI. But I have a few pieces of really good news. First, the MRI showed no signs of a stroke. I asked about last February also. I'm switching to oral antibiotics and looking at discharging tomorrow after 3. My speech practice is paying off because I am ordering my food via telephone. And now the MOST exciting part. The PT tried it and gave it the green light and now all transfers are being done using just a gate belt. I got wet while in my chair and two ladies came probably not weighing more than 210 pounds and combined changed me! One person said in and out of bed is a breeze! Goodbye, Sarah Study Best-Move!
4/18
My apologies boss. I wish I could turn back time. I instantly think of the stupid Cher song. Anyway, I just want everyone to be cool and comfortable around me. I want to get back to fist bumps. I was so aggravated when you said that it wasn't on my calendar after you responded that Tuesday beforehand and said, quote, "Yes, we will get you there on Friday!" End quote. Well, I'm politely asking if someone could please take me to the same clinic as my last appointment either Tuesday or Thursday morning BEFORE 9:30 AM. Actually, it's before ten but I'm playing it safe. We DON'T need an appointment. Sam, I'm also politely asking you to please put it on my calendar for either Tuesday or Thursday morning to please get me to the same clinic. Yeah, Sam, I'll CC you in any and every clinic or appointment-related email from now on. Just please confirm with me that it's on my calendar.
But now back to being cool again. Yes, we; Brian, his wife, and I, think it was pretty heinous to have all our hopes of a peaceful get-together meal followed up by prayers in our church shot down. But I forgive you. At times like this, I have to ask myself, what would Jesus do? He certainly wouldn't have cursed out the leader of his caretakers AKA you. In fact, I think as he was on the Cross he said something like, "Forgive them, Father, they know not what they do."
My negative reactions have got to stop. I shouldn't have acted the way I did but at the same time don't get the hopes of a flat-broke, struggling, TBI-recovering person who spends his days looking at blank walls, (I'm broke) and listening to CNAs talking on their phones while I draw or game, get crushed. I'm so broke and bored! Is it summer yet? I want fresh air. I'll quit boring you now. I'm starting to bore myself! Go far with Sahr, just make sure you CC Sam or you might not get anywhere!
4/18
ask me before and after reading this section
I'm sorry Nancy. Truly I am a very bad person. I wasn't 100 % happy with Blossom services so I lied and exaggerated the truth. I never have physically seen anyone sleeping on the job. It just was always my assumption when they came into my room sleepy-eyed. I talked with Moe, the one who changed me without wiping while he had those sleepy eyes and he said that he would never do it again. The bottom line is that all of my cares are being met. And surprisingly well done at that. My ostomy cares are met. Showers are done and since Sahr talked about it with her, Emma kept her cackling to a minimum. I'm terribly sorry to reprimand me or whatever is understandable. I was just looking for more companionship with my caretakers so I took the feeble way out. I'm a big pussy in a grown man's body. Sorry for wasting your time. Blossom, though we've had our differences, are my family now. University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102 is where I want to stay. Just look at the sweet haircut I got. I expected to pay $25-30 but Sam and Ballah took me to Skillz barber. Their prices were $12 haircuts and $7 beard cuts. I got both for $8. I had to apologize to my barber for the only tip I could afford was not to eat a Yellosnocone. Which is my Gamertag if any of your friends or family members want to play Hearthstone. Yellosnocone #1705 have them add me.
4/18
Yes we’re still on for the 15th. And please don’t forward this email on to Blossom like you’ve done with almost every other email I’ve ever sent you! Sahr was mentioning if I wanted to go to another agency. If that involves me relocating then I definitely DON’T want to do it. And I’m not the slightest bit racist. I’ve dated black women. But they were born in America. When someone says they want to watch a movie with me but then they are in a phone call on their Bluetooth device the whole time then where is the working relationship? And I swear to the Holy Ghost if either of you forward this message on to Sahr then sorry Nancy you will be fired. I kind of have to keep Tricia. But seriously though the language barrier is difficult enough with my speech the way it is. Is there any agencies out there that have workers that were born in America? I would like to be the one who is in the conversation with my caretakers AKA company in MY HOUSE. Not their families back home on their Bluetooth. Remember FORWARD THIS AND NANCY IS FIRED! Sorry I forgot to say can I please get some information on American born potential agencies that don’t involve a relocation? Please and thank you!
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On Apr 4, 2024, at 3:29 PM, Germain, Nancy J. wrote:
I will talk to Sahr about it so he can address this with staff.
Are we still good with meeting on the 15th for your review? Did any of your family members say that they would want to join the meeting?
Nancy
-----Original Message-----
From: Mathew Kerzman
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 3:13 PM
To: Germain, Nancy J.
Cc: Tricia McNamee
Subject: Re: I don’t feel safe
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It’s just that every single aid is either sleeping or on the phone. Phone calls straight up annoy the crap out of me. Especially if it’s during my cares.
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On Apr 4, 2024, at 9:53 AM, Germain, Nancy J. wrote:
Hi,
I just saw the email now... it did not go to my inbox.
Mat, are you okay?
Nancy
-----Original Message-----
From: Tricia McNamee
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 9:45 AM
To: Mathew Kerzman ; Germain, Nancy J.
Subject: RE: I don’t feel safe
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Hello Mat,
Can you explain the situation for us? I am not sure I understand what you are referring to.
Tricia McNamee
Independent Living Advocate
Transition Coordinator
Freedom Resource Center for Independent Living, Inc.
2701 9th Ave S. Ste. H
Fargo, ND 58103
Phone: 701-478-0459 or 800-450-0459
Fax: 701-478-0510
Email: [email protected]
Website: http://www.freedomrc.org/
Our Vision: People with disabilities are equal and valued participants of society.
Our Mission: Provide services that increase independence for people with disabilities.
-----Original Message-----
From: Mathew Kerzman
Sent: Thursday, April 4, 2024 4:49 AM
To: Nancy Germain ; Tricia McNamee
Subject: I don’t feel safe
CAUTION: This email originated from outside of the organization. Do not click links or open attachments unless you recognize the sender and know the content is safe.
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4/18 ask again please
This started as a text to a friend, but I am going to add to it. Start of text: So things are up and down. Like I am broke as heck. I mean I made my milk from a powder base the other day. But I am doing so many things independently. Like today I put my own freaking glove on and used my weaker hand to help. I honestly only used my teeth to get it over my knuckles. All so I could dump my colostomy bag by myself. Sorry tmi but I speak the truth.
End of text.
And as I am speaking of being broke. I am typing this out with my finger because I can't afford the $15 on Amazon for Apple Pencil tips! But it's really all about freedom and independence. If I were to get married to a woman who has basic CNA knowledge and can help me transfer in and out of bed I could do this rest. Pills could be set up by nurses who would come in once a week and arrange them in planners and do a catheter flush. I could hire someone to come in every few days and give me showers. I wouldn't even need Blossom Service Group LLC. I would still continue to go to PAM rehab for therapy riding transit by myself. Making sure that my ostomy bag is emptied before I go out and stop at the bathrooms as needed to dump my leg bag when needed. Starting today I'm always going to wear a leg bag when I'm in my chair. No one wants to see that pee bag. Even if it has a blue cover.
Sure, being broke as heck really sucks but the freedom I'm experiencing is remarkable. The Art Gala with Mary was simply amazing. It made me feel, I don't know kind of justified. Like I don't mean to come off as conceded but when I won the award I kind of knew that it was well deserved with the years of art I've pumped out at Dakota Alpha. Speaking of which, I still love and enjoy the art plaque of all of my favorite bands on my wall. In fact, I'm so broke that it's the ONLY thing on my wall! I'm honestly thinking about starting day trading or some sort of graphic design job. I don't know. Any and all ideas or recommendations would be greatly appreciated. Tell Karl that I'm still the boss at Rummy when I get the opportunity to play with Dorbor my CNA. The last game was 590-325. And if he plays his tricks on any of your residents tell them to ALWAYS call heads. Seriously though. The one time they call tails it will be heads. Pick one or the other and NEVER sway! Sorry, it took so long to get back to you, Miss Ma'am! I still tell people that story.
4/18
Everything is starting to look really bad. #1 is the money issue. Buying wipes, briefs, and food can NOT be done with $100 a month! $178 if you include SNAP benefits. I guess I could start working from home. But first some more of the bad things. I scared another CNA away. Well, it's not scaring when you flat-out fire them! He was constantly sleeping. And you could say that he was green to American culture and he refused to even listen to a joke. My chair is falling apart
4/18
I'm Sorry boss that you had to see me at my worst. On my Sanford chart app the dr said I was responsible for getting it from Sanford equip so I honestly thought we would get there and get turned away. Another thing was that I had to be there before 10 to get my testosterone test. Which by the way doesn't need to be scheduled. I told them I would be there Tuesday morning if that's cool with you.
4/18
But seriously don’t make me forward this on to Nancy. Musa may claim to be med smart and he thinks he’s better than me. I tried telling him how to dump my pee bag and he’s all, “Sahr will show me, not you.” Second time last night putting me to bed with a leg bag. I even reminded him but then forgot. Always leaves my socks on my chair. Every day I say please put them in the hamper. I have really tried with him. I know that they are just my workers and not my friends. But I can’t even have a conversation with him. I spent 4 hours in the hospital twiddling my thumbs and talking to myself.
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4/18
Sahr, I'm not going to cc anyone else in this email and not even forward it to my counselor or family. And I don't mean any offense to black folks. I've dated them. I know that my unit is nowhere near your people but I kind of have a thing for dark meat. I almost married one! Well not really I asked after a few months and she said, quote; "Oh Hell no. Too soon my man." Or something like that for she was American born. And I don't know much about the average CNA wage for home health care but I'm guessing that it's more than $18 an hour. I remember hearing Decontee on the phone before she left. But working with me is going to have to pay way WAY way more than that! For you KNOW first hand how MUCH work I am. When I was a line cook at Paradiso I made $18 and that was in 2012. Think about inflation for a second. And the Lord, whom I firmly believe in and love. Knows that I could sue you, put you out of business, and win in court again. You, with all your expertise in health care, had the great idea of tying my hand to the bed. You let people sleep on the job. Emma finally started snoring after I had put my headphones in because of her voice on the phone. Good talk with her today huh? But I don't want to. Even if I do move I wouldn't. I want to continue to go far with Sahr. Please pay the CNAs who are working in my house a heck of a lot more. At least #20 and black, white, I really don't give a freak! See, I'm working on not swearing. Dorbor is awesome, Melvina is awesome, and Emmanuel is definitely awesome! Just please, American-born from now on. No offense but Africans love their phones too Just please, And oh yeah, your aids, they have to play with feces. Speaking of which I have to get into bed later today because it's already falling off. You both forgot the back strap. It's on now but I don't want feces on fresh bedding. Go far with Sahr. And I can't afford to buy wipes with a hundred bucks a month. Now that my briefs are getting paid for. That's it! And I have more alcohol wipes. I'll tweak the one-handed wiper. It'll sell for $20 at Walmart but if you and a beneficiary of my choosing (SSDI I can't make money) invest the $500 patent fee then you guys would make bank! I'll work on an itinerary. I'm excited about Transit Solo Sunday!
The lowest paid home health RN, yes technically my aids are RN’s for they change my colostomy bag and administer my medication, make $23.6 dollars an hour the middle range is $37.50. I’m sorry about the Africans love their phones comment. I sincerely respect their loyalty and admire their dedication to family. I just think aids would be more willing to work with me and all of my MANY MANY needs and cares. Once again I really want to stay on with you. You’re making bank off of me and I know it. I have $14.57 in my account and yes I have Xl gloves coming in today so my aid’s whom I sincerely appreciate can help me get them on easily. I’m never trying to be pushy I just get excited when trying to help. You’re the man and I want to continue to go far with Sahr. You guys really are amazing and like family to me. Pay them better and I’ll gladly stay. I feel weird about saying this but I love you all. One more thing I’ll gladly stay conditionally #2. Emma follows the no phone rule. But everyone else can use them! I gotta get to bingo. Sorry Emma I need to wake you up for a glove!
https://www.ziprecruiter.com/Salaries/Home-Health-Rn-Salary-in-Fargo,ND
4/18
I just don't want you to hate me Emmanuel. I know that you've seen me at my worst. I think I've yelled around one too many times. But I respect you. You're a pastor for Pete's sake! Well, I am also a man of God. Being tied up like Him on the cross is not a good way for anyone to sleep. It broke that day because on the night before I altered my elbow brace. It ended up being painful so I was trying to adjust it. I had to repeatedly hold it above my head. I know that the fact that it kept dropping on it is what broke it. I just don't want you to hate me. You're one of my coolest aids at Blossom. No one else has brought me food. The pressure of my arm resting on the bag would never break these bags they are built strong.
4/18
A few different people at PAM have asked me about the care I'm receiving from Blossom. Mostly after hearing about the hand-tying business, and not to mention the ostomy care. But I am hopeful that this phone call will resolve half of the issues. I'm content with Blossom so far. They are doing the best they can, especially when ostomy care is added to the regiment. I'm MORE than a handful and to this day I secretly believe that Dakota Alpha was trying to push me out! Even though Aly swears up and down that she would have loved to have more residents as driven as me.
4/18
you might have already read this section I’m just sorry I took up all your time reading. I’ll try to play chess with Dorbor!
March 11, 2024
I understand that Blossom Services staff are scheduled to be with me 24/7, but I would like to spend some time without staff twice per week for a two-hour duration each time. During that time, Blossom staff will go out of the apartment and will check-in with me at the one-hour mark. They will also respond to any message that you need them back due to emergency. I agree to notify (message) staff if I need them for any urgent needs during the two hours.
I am my own decision maker and have the right to make this choice. I acknowledge and agree that I am responsible for anything that happens during the time that I am out of staff’s line of sight. Blossom Services will not be liable for anything that happens during that time.
I agree that I will not engage in behavior that may jeopardize my apartment or housing and will not engage in unlawful behavior. This includes smoking or vaping, which are both, per posted signs in the apartment building, not allowed in the building or apartment. Eviction due to these behaviors will occur if caught. Unlawful behavior, including smoking marijuana or other illegal drug use, is also punishable by law and would result in losing the apartment and housing assistance.
I agree to let Blossom Services know ahead of time what days each week that I would like to spend a couple of hours alone.
I agree to communicate with Blossom Services any medical appointments that I wish to change ahead of that appointment day. I want to go in to see the doctor for exams without staff in the room, but I will supply staff with the after-visit summary after each appointment so that care coordination can continue.
I would like to empty my ostomy bag myself and agree to let Blossom Services nurse teach me regarding how I can do this myself. I agree that my staff can be present when I empty the bag as a second set of hands, if needed. Staff will continue to help me to put on a glove before I empty the ostomy bag each time and will continue to do all bag changes.
I like to cook and would like to be able to do some cooking sometimes. I agree to work with staff’s assistance around the stove due to safety measures that need to be followed concerning some cooking procedures, for example… boiling water, hot oil, etc.
Blossom Services will be supplying a whiteboard calendar where activities can be planned ahead of time, my time without staff can be planned twice per week, my appointments can be posted, and any other events can be shared that I would like to participate in.
The key is communication between me and the agency as we move forward.
with my edits
March 11, 2024
I understand that Blossom Services staff are scheduled to be with me 24/7, but I would like to spend some time without staff twice per week for a two-hour duration each time. During that time, Blossom staff will go out of the apartment and will check in with me at the one-hour mark.
I am my own decision-maker and have the right to make this choice. I acknowledge and agree that I am responsible for anything that happens during the time that I am out of the staff's line of sight. Blossom Services will not be liable for anything that happens during that time. I agree that I will not engage in behavior that may jeopardize my apartment or housing and will not engage in unlawful behavior. This includes smoking or vaping, which are both, per posted signs in the apartment building, not allowed in the building or apartment. Eviction due to these behaviors will occur if caught. Unlawful behavior, including smoking marijuana or other illegal drug use, is also punishable by law and would result in losing the apartment and housing assistance. When I get my medical marijuana card I will gladly step outside.
If I wanted to get somewhere within my apartment building I would give my staff a thirty-minute heads-up. I agree to communicate with Blossom Services any medical appointments that I wish to change ahead of that appointment day. I want to go in to see the doctor for exams without staff in the room, but I will supply staff with the after-visit summary after each appointment so that care coordination can continue.
I have been emptying my ostomy bag myself and showed Louise the nurse how I do it. She gave me an emphatic thumbs-up! I agree that my staff would stay within earshot and not be on their computers. I will continue to put on a glove before I empty the ostomy bag. I know that my CNAs will do all bag changes.
I like and am able to do some cooking sometimes. I agree to work with staff's assistance around the stove due to safety measures that need to be followed concerning some cooking procedures, for example… boiling water, hot oil, etc.
Blossom Services will be supplying a whiteboard calendar where my appointments can be posted, and any other events can be shared that I would like to participate in.
The key is communication between me and the agency as we move forward.
_________________________ ______________________ Mathew Kerzman Sahr Thomas, Blossom Services
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Nancy J. Germain, LBSW, HCBS CM
I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide care for me? If not, do you know any that could?I am Interested in your services. I currently have Blossom Home Health Services Group LLC taking care of me and my magnitude of healthcare needs. I say magnitude because, for starters, my medication alone is MORE than a little bit of work. I have Parkinson-like symptoms thus Parkinsonism's and I receive medication for them five times a day. I have therapy trips to PAM rehab three times a week. Shower on average three times a week. Can do a stand pivot transfer. Also, I have a best-move Standing aid lift. I have a colostomy bag and a super-pubic catheter. I dump the colostomy bag and urinary bag myself while I'm in my chair. I live at University Drive Manor 1201 2nd Ave N Apt #101 Fargo, ND 58102. Could your agency provide care for me? If not, do you know any that could?
4/1/24
Sahr is so full of bologna. He told me he is top notch. I just met with Emerald Cares and I told them that all of my other prospective agencies are out. There awesome! 24/7 care. No phone policy. English language is dominant. I don’t have to move. Like 5 nurses on board as compared to Blossoms one! Well trained in ostomy care. They have been around for years and they have heard no complaints of people sleeping on the job ever!
Sahr is so full of bologna. He told me he is top notch. I just met with Emerald Cares and I told them that all of my other prospective agencies are out. There awesome! 24/7 care. No phone policy. English language is dominant. I don’t have to move. Like 5 nurses on board as compared to Blossoms one! Well trained in ostomy care. They have been around for years and they have heard no complaints of people sleeping on the job ever!